its just one of these rarest days when we play together, two completely different teams fused together to dance, to sing, to play, to jump for God. like kaibin said, honestly, today's worship was really good. and it's not just about playing. it's like we were so connected. like we just plugged ourselves into God's USB drive.

all of us of different personalities, sometimes just completely immersed in our own worlds, completely unaware of whatever's going around us. this happens all so often in our personal lives, but never happens when we're placed together, on that stage.

the moment o wen cues us in for our song, the moment i start pushing those keys to deliver the melody, the moment kaibin gives a strum on his guitar. or when ben jumps in with a bang, or when shaun tickles us with his ridiculous messages to the kids. suddenly, it's like our 5 minds get connected together in the spirit. its like we can practically read each others' minds. we just flow as one, all plugged in to the same channel.

we have fun, we have our crazy moments, we laugh, we poke, we tease, we fight, we squabble. notice how i said "WE". we, are a TEAM. as cliche as this sounds, it's something that we can never take for granted, and we can never, ever, ever replace. it is with this team that i have spent my past 6 years with. it is this team that taught me the craziest stuff, done the most insane things together, had the most ridiculous, yet emotional conversations with. it is with this team that i have went through the most unexpected moments, overcoming so many obstacles and eventually emerging together as one team, one band, one potato family :)

in fact, it is in this team that i found my brothers. two are the fatter ones and the others..not so fat. :) but nevertheless, it's amazing how all four of you have meant so much to me. those times when shaun would message me for no reason and we would have funny conversations to entertain ourselves, those times when i would have to spend long hours with o wen on the bus, learning how to sleep :P those times when kaibin would get scoldings from me. but then again we share so much affection at the same time. ben, you're practically my big bro :) you're the one who can practically read my mind and tell when i'm feeling upset, calling me late at night to check if i'm alright, always reminding me "don't worry kiddo, we're all here for you." you guys are the BEST :) i really thank God for all four of you, for how much you have blessed me and brought joy to my heart. i'm glad to be the little sis :)

when we play, we play for God. it is for this only reason that we are how we are today. glancing at my sides once awhile during worship, when i see the kids lifting their hands, passionately crying out to God and worshipping along with us, my heart melts. and hearing our voices rise when the music ceases, my heart melts. its just knowing, yes God is pleased with us. he's pleased that we honour him with our talents and our skills, and our hearts are truely, purely worshipping him.

yes, jesus loves me,

yes, jesus loves me.

yes, jesus loves me,

for the bible tells me so.

have a little faith, God will multiply it to bless you :)

look how we've grown so much over these years :) i must say, i've definitely picked up much of o wen and shaun's suaning skills. influential, yes. dangerous, yes. loving it? DEFINITELY. and for this simple reason, i am happy to be me!

i love you all :)

kiddo.